I’m seventeen weeks pregnant today! I had another prenatal appointment on Thursday and [insert appointment stuff here]. Things are moving along and I’m starting to feel more pregnant. My friends still tell me I don’t look pregnant, and while I notice the difference, it is a little bit of a toss-up whether I look pregnant or just like I’ve been eating too many donuts. I found myself rubbing my belly more, partially because it is starting to stick out more and partially because I’m starting to feel a bit of a bond with the little being inside.
How I’m Feeling:
Physically, I’m feeling much better this week. Nausea is way down, and I just get a little woozy and queasy in the evenings. I think screens make it worse, so I’ve been trying to limit phone time, and take breaks at work. I’m starting to feel more going on in my abdomen, including some muscle pulling in my groin/hip region whenever I stand up after sitting for a while. The doctor says it’s totally normal, although Dan is still concerned every time I wince while standing up. My energy is up. I found myself getting up and getting ready for work more easily this week, which is nice, and I haven’t been crashing as dramatically in the middle of the day.
I’ve also noticed that my mobility is changing. In barre, I can tell my belly is starting to be more noticeable when I’m doing stretches bent over my leg or legs, especially when we’re at the barre. But I think stretching and exercise are helping me feel better physically. I’ve been trying to get back into my yoga after a couple months of illness and insecurity about the pregnancy. But I found a prenatal yoga flow sequence that I like, and I’m going to try to get back into my home practice. And my meditation practice. I’ve found that sitting and watching my breathing for just five minutes each day has been helpful at quieting my mind, and it may have even helped my physical health because my blood pressure was slightly lower at the doctor this week, too!
Emotionally, I was kind of a wreck for much of the week, leading up to my appointment. It’s tough when you’ve experienced things not going as you expect them to. I keep anticipating that this appointment will be the one where I get the news that this pregnancy is over, too. It’s not a coincidence that I wrote about pregnancy after loss this week; it really has been on my mind more this week than it had been since my last appointment. I will say, I’m glad I had a couple weeks of reprieve from the anxiety. Now I have a five-week wait until my next appointment, which is also my anatomy scan, so that will probably let my anxiety build up nicely again. But I felt a little flood of relief when the doctor found the heartbeat with the Doppler.
With that, I’m going to end with my current most bizarre pregnancy symptom: I’m apparently unable to spell the word “definitively” correctly on the first try. Every single time I type it, I end up adding an extra “in” in the middle and have to fix it. And I’ve only noticed this happening since I’ve been pregnant. Weird.
Exercise: 2.7 average miles per day walking, yoga once, barre three times
Current cravings: Chocolate Hazelnut Fudge Coconut Bliss, avocados, seaweed, eggs, carnitas tacos, cake
Fruit Comparison: Onion (wait, that’s not a fruit…)